Personality Transplant, Anyone?
Well Tuesdays was my SITS feature day, as you know. So now, after so many wonderful and kind people have visited my blog (and commented, YAY!) in addition to the already wonderful people who visit my blog I feel a teensy bit of pressure to write something really good!
I got nothing.
What I can share with you is a minor epiphany I had in the car this morning. Today was my last day at the Women’s Biblestudy at our church where we have worked and worshipped for just over 4 years.
I was praying as I drove that God would help me get through the morning – you know, to finish well. I was praying that I would be gentle, patient, gentle, kind, gentle…you get the picture. Basically all the things I am not by nature…or personality. Then it was like a lightbulb moment, but I suspect it was actually more the gentle nudging of the Holy Spirit, who pointed out that it was more than a little ridiculous to ask for a personality transplant any time I need to work through a difficult situation or have a tough conversation (which is basically what I do). More than that, it was a bit like praying to win the lottery and not buying ticket (NOT that I am advocating that…back to the point).
It then occurred to me that it would be far more useful to pray for God to use me as he made me, in just a more Godly fashion that I may, of my own volition, offer. See, I am a loud, brick through the (front!) window blunt, assertive (read confrontational), did I mention loud(?) person by nature! Praying for gentleness is not that useful.
So instead I asked God to help me be careful, thoughtful and gracious in my words and actions.
Careful, thoughtful and gracious. I get the feeling that’s something God can work with.
(sorry about any typos or grammatical errors, girl is crying – gotta run!)