Before I Put Myself In Time Out Let Me Tell You Why I Cried Today
I cried because I am sick of dealing with narky, snarky women.
Then a lovely woman helped me and I felt guilty so I cried again.
Then another lovely woman helped me and I cried some more.
I cried because the enormity of all of this finally hit me today, and I had to let it out
then I cried because I was only crying because how this affects me and I should care more about how it affect Bliss*
Then a doctor abruptly told me it would be another 4 weeks til Bliss gets her cast off,and I wanted to cry but instead I asked for a second opinion
and the most lovely orthopedic surgeon came and sat next to me and talked to me like an adult.He respected me as a fellow intetlligent person, and as a mother. For the first time since all this started someone took their time to explain to me…
to explain that it takes 7 years for a broken bone to completely heal and that anything shy of that is a compromise
to explain that another 4 weeks offers Bliss the best protection, but that she will still be at risk of re-breaking it once the cast comes off
to explain that because of that, if he were treating her he might take the cast off above her knee but leave it over the calf for anther 2-4 weeks just to be sure
to explain to me that we may be having x-rays through to December until they are sure the bone is strong enough
to apologise to me that because of the public system I will see a different doctor each time and they won’t care what anyone else thinks and will each have a different opinion
to apologise to me that even though we would be willing to go privately, no doctors will take us because she doesn’t need surgery and that’s what ortho’s do.
Then he looked me in the eye and said, so kindly “You know she’s going to be OK don’t you?”
I came home, Bear vomited all over himself, me the floor (overfed, nothing serious) and I was about to lose it when The Architect walked in and I handed it all over to him and took myself to bed
which is where I am going back to right now. xx
*Bliss is coping amazingly with this, she is so resilient – she inspires me every day.